Addiction Makes Three
Addiction Makes Three The Podcast, with Amanda Lockyer is dedicated to shining a light and understanding the lesser talked about side of addiction. The real impact it has on the partners and families of those that struggle with addiction.Are you struggling with a partners addiction and feel at a complete loss as to what to do?You feel like you have no one to turn to and are worried you'll be judged or your partner will be judged. It can feel like no one understands what you are going through and no one could really imagine what this is...
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- StandardSummaries only107 - My Husband Has Stopped Drinking. Why Are Things Still So Hard?
Published Oct 17, 2026
Your husband has stopped drinking. Which is great.Maybe it's been six months, nine months or even a year.So why are you still walking on eggshells? Why do certain conversations still feel impossible? And why doesn't home feel the way you hoped it would?In Episode 107 of Addiction Makes Three, I'm talking about the difference between sobriety and recovery - because while they're often used interchangeably, they're not the same thing.We explore why stopping drinking is such an important milestone,
- StandardSummaries only106 - Is My Husband an Alcoholic? When Everyone Else Thinks He's Fine
Published Oct 12, 2026
He has a good job. He's respected, successful, and everyone thinks he's a great guy.But behind closed doors? It's a different story.You're watching how much he drinks, walking on eggshells, and wondering whether tonight will be peaceful.And you keep asking yourself: Is my husband an alcoholic? Or am I making too much of this?In this episode of Addiction Makes Three, Amanda explores why alcoholism doesn't always look the way we expect, the confusion surrounding the term functioning alcoholic, and
- StandardSummaries only105 - I Don't Know What To Do. Finding Clarity When You Love Someone With Addiction
Published Jul 25, 2026
One of the most common things I hear from partners and family members is..."I don't know what to do anymore."If you've ever found yourself wondering:Should I stay or leave?How do I support someone with addiction?What boundaries should I set?Should I tell the kids?How do I know if I'm doing the right thing?...this episode is for you.Living alongside addiction is exhausting. You're often carrying the emotional weight of the family, trying to protect your children, making impossible decisions, and
- StandardSummaries only104 - From My Notebook | The Signs of Recovery We Almost Always Miss
Published Jul 21, 2026
When someone you love is struggling with addiction, it's natural to focus on the obvious signs. Are they drinking? Using? Going to meetings? Following through with treatment?But what if some of the most meaningful signs of recovery are the ones we almost always miss?In this first From My Notebook episode, I'm sharing a story that has stayed with me long after a coaching session ended. It starts with a lemon tree... but it's really about recognising the quiet moments that tell us someone is slowl
- StandardSummaries only103 - The Things You Can (and Can't) Control
Published Jul 2, 2026
What if your peace didn't have to wait?So many of us quietly tell ourselves:💛 "I'll feel better when they stop drinking."💛 "I'll relax when they get help."💛 "I'll be happy when things settle down."But what if peace doesn't arrive at the end of someone else's recovery journey?In this episode, Amanda shares two powerful voice notes from a listener whose words capture something so many families affected by addiction experience:We can't make someone stop drinking.We can't force someone into recov
- StandardSummaries only102 - It’s all you think about. It takes Up Everything in Your Mind
Published Jun 26, 2026
If you've been feeling exhausted lately... but it's not the kind of exhaustion sleep fixes... this episode is for you.When you're living with a partner or loved one struggling with alcohol addiction or substance use, it's not just the drinking that's exhausting.It's the constant worrying.The overthinking.The planning.The scanning.The mental load of trying to keep everything together while wondering what kind of day or night it's going to be.In this episode, Amanda shares more powerful listener v
- StandardSummaries only101 - It Steals Us Away from the Person We Used to Be
Published Jun 24, 2026
What happens when you spend so much time focused on someone else's addiction that you stop recognising yourself?In this episode of Addiction Makes Three, Amanda explores one of the quieter impacts of loving someone struggling with alcohol addiction, substance use, or addictive behaviours: the loss of self that can happen along the way.Through powerful listener voice notes and Amanda's own experiences, this episode dives into what it looks like when your thoughts become consumed by someone else's
- StandardSummaries only100 - The Things We Rarely Say Out Loud About Loving Someone with Addiction
Published Jun 19, 2026
What if the hardest part isn't their addiction...What if it's what living alongside addiction has done to you?For this special 100th episode of Addiction Makes Three, Amanda shares real voice notes from listeners around the world about what it's really like loving someone struggling with alcohol addiction, substance use, or addictive behaviours.Together, their voices share...Feeling exhausted from constantly worryingWalking on eggshells and living in anticipationLosing themselves in someone else
- StandardSummaries only99 - I Think I've Lost Myself In This. Who Am I Without Their Addiction?
Published Jun 16, 2026
Have you ever stopped and wondered who you would be if addiction wasn't part of your life anymore?Not because you don't love your person.But because addiction has taken up so much space in your life that you've lost touch with yourself.In this episode, we're talking about the quiet loss of identity that can happen when you've spent years focused on someone else's drinking, drug use, recovery, choices and wellbeing.We chat about...💛 Why addiction can slowly become part of your identity💛 Why pea
- StandardSummaries only98 - Is This Just My Life Now? How Addiction Slowly Makes Your World Smaller
Published Jun 11, 2026
A client recently said to me, "I finally love my job... but I don't get joy anywhere."And I think that one sentence captures what so many people impacted by addiction experience. Because one of the sneakiest things about survival mode is that it doesn't always look like falling apart.Sometimes it looks like functioning.You still go to work.You still parent.You still pay the bills.You still show up.From the outside, it can look like you're coping.Maybe you've even been telling yourself you're cop
- StandardSummaries only97 - I Don't Think I Get To Fall Apart
Published Jun 9, 2026
What happens when you've spent years being the strong one?The one who keeps going.The one who remembers everything.The one who holds the family together.The one who keeps functioning no matter what's happening around them.In this episode of Addiction Makes Three, Amanda explores the hidden exhaustion so many people impacted by addiction carry.The kind of exhaustion that doesn't come from a bad week.But from years of hypervigilance, over-functioning, emotional responsibility and survival mode.Bec
- StandardSummaries only96 - I Can't Switch Off: Why I'm Always Waiting For Something To Go Wrong
Published Jun 4, 2026
Do you feel like you're always waiting for the next problem?The next phone call.The next argument.The next relapse.The next thing that throws everything off course.If you love someone struggling with addiction, that constant feeling of being "on" can become so normal that you stop questioning it.You tell yourself you're just stressed.Just tired.Just a bit anxious.But what if the reason you can't relax has nothing to do with your personality?In this episode, Amanda explores one of the hidden impa
- StandardSummaries only95 - I Know Something Needs To Change… I Just Don't Know Where To Start
Published Jun 2, 2026
Learn more about Discovery to Recovery hereYou know something needs to change.You know something isn't working.You know you're exhausted.But when you're living with addiction in a relationship, knowing what to do next can feel impossible.Maybe you're constantly thinking about your loved one's drinking, drug use, gambling, or addictive behaviour.Maybe you're walking on eggshells, trying not to make things worse.Maybe you're lying awake at night wondering:"Am I overreacting?""Is it really that bad
- StandardSummaries only94 - I’m In Limbo: How Long Do I Wait?
Published May 27, 2026
What happens when the person you love recognises they have a problem (or maybe they don't)… and nothing feels steady?What happens when you keep hoping things will improve… but your life slowly becomes consumed by waiting?In this deeply honest episode of Addiction Makes Three, Amanda explores the emotional limbo so many spouses and family members of people struggling with addiction quietly live in: waiting for sobriety, waiting for stability, waiting for peace, waiting to finally exhale.Amanda op
- StandardSummaries only93 - How Survival Mode Slowly Becomes Your Personality
Published May 21, 2026
One of the hardest parts about loving someone struggling with alcohol or addiction?How slowly survival mode starts feeling normal.The hypervigilance.The walking on eggshells.The overthinking.The emotional exhaustion.The inability to fully relax.And over time… you stop recognising yourself.In this episode, Amanda explores the hidden ways addiction impacts partners and families - and how survival mode slowly becomes something you mistake for your personality.If you’ve ever found yourself:constantl
- StandardSummaries only92 - Am I Overreacting? The Hidden Damage Addiction Causes
Published May 19, 2026
Have you ever asked yourself, "Maybe It’s Me?"One of the hardest parts about loving someone struggling with alcohol or addiction? It’s not always the drinking, the lying, the gambling, or the chaos. It’s what slowly starts happening to you. And loosing your own trust is one of those impacts that is lesser seen and almost never spoken about. But it's impacts are devastating.In this episode, Amanda talks about the hidden emotional toll addiction can have on partners and families - the confusion, h
- StandardSummaries only91 - The Hills I’ll Die On After Loving Someone With Addiction
Published May 14, 2026
Today Amanda shares the “hills she’ll die on” after loving someone struggling with alcohol and addiction… and after supporting hundreds of women and men impacted by it too.From waiting for rock bottom… to believing sobriety should magically fix everything… to thinking more information will finally make things feel better…This episode challenges some of the biggest myths people quietly carry in addiction and recovery.In this episode we talk through...Why you do NOT need to wait for things to get
- StandardSummaries only90 - I Miss Who I Used To Be: How Survival Mode Slowly Changes You
Published May 13, 2026
Sometimes the hardest part about addiction…. is realising how much you have changed too.In this deeply personal episode, Amanda opens up about the grief of losing yourself in survival mode.The anxiety.The hypervigilance.The exhaustion.The version of you that slowly disappeared while trying to hold everything together.Because addiction doesn’t just impact the person struggling.It changes the people around them too.🎧 In this episode, we cover:How survival mode slowly changes youThe grief of losin
- StandardSummaries only89 - Mother’s Day, Addiction, and the Grief No One Talks About
Published May 7, 2026
Mother’s Day can bring up a lot for many of us.And when addiction has touched your life… not all of it feels good.Because Mother’s Day can become this painful mix of hope, disappointment and grief all at the same time.In this deeply personal episode, Amanda opens up about the complicated emotional reality of Mother’s Day when addiction is part of your story.From unmet expectations… to feeling unseen… to grieving the version of family life you thought you’d have… this episode puts words to feelin
- StandardSummaries only88 - Why Learning More About Addiction Might Be Keeping You Stuck
Published May 5, 2026
You’ve learnt a lot about addiction.You understand the patterns.You can see what’s happening.You’ve done the reading, the podcasts, the research.So why does it still feel like nothing is changing?In this episode, we’re talking about a trap that’s easy to fall into - especially when you’re trying to handle this better:👉 learning more… instead of doing differentlyBecause at some point, more knowledge doesn’t create change.It keeps you in what I call consumption mode.In this episode, we cover:What
- StandardSummaries only87 - Why It’s Not Getting Better (Even Though You’re Doing Everything Right)
Published May 1, 2026
You’re struggling with a loved one’s addiction and you’re trying really hard to make things better.Reading.Listening.Learning everything you can.Trying to handle this better.Trying to respond better.Trying to make things work.And yet…You still find yourself in the same place.Reacting.Overthinking.Carrying it all.And nothing is actually getting better - in fact it’s getting worse.In this episode, we’re talking about why.Because this isn’t a lack of effort.And it’s not because you’re not capable.I
- StandardSummaries only86 - I Can’t Keep Doing This: What Happens When You Reach Your Limit
Published Apr 29, 2026
Sometimes it’s not a big moment.Not a crisis.Not the worst day.Not the breaking point you thought it would be.It’s quieter than that.It’s the moment where something inside you says:“I can’t keep doing this like this.”In this episode, we’re talking about that moment.The one where you realise:👉 This isn’t sustainable👉 This isn’t working👉 And something needs to changeEven if you don’t know what that looks like yet.🎧 In this episode, we cover:The “low hum” of anxiety that becomes normalWhy thing
- StandardSummaries only85 - The Part No One Talks About Series: Sobriety Doesn’t Fix the Relationship
Published Apr 26, 2026
You thought sobriety would change everything. I know I did...That once they stopped drinking… you’d finally feel better.More relaxed.More connected.Less on edge.But what happens when sobriety comes… and your relationship still doesn’t feel right?In this episode of The Part No One Talks About series, we’re talking about something that can feel confronting—but incredibly important to understand:Sobriety doesn’t automatically fix a relationship.Because while it might remove the chaos… it doesn’t un
- StandardSummaries only84 - The Part No One Talks About Series: When Sobriety Isn’t What You Expected
Published Apr 23, 2026
You thought sobriety would change everything.That once they stopped drinking… you’d finally feel better.More relaxed.More connected.Less on edge.But what happens when that moment comes… and you still don’t feel okay?In this episode of The Part No One Talks About series, we’re talking about something that can feel incredibly confusing:When sobriety isn’t the relief you expected.Because while things might look better on paper…Inside, you might still feel:On edgeHyper-awareLike you’re waiting for s
- StandardSummaries only83 - The Part No One Talks About Series: You Look Fine… But You’re Not
Published Apr 21, 2026
In this episode of The Part No One Talks About series, we’re diving into the invisible impact of loving someone with addiction.Because while addiction can be loud…The impact on you is often silent.This episode is for the ones who:Look like they’re holding it all togetherBut feel like they’re bracing every single dayAnd wonder why they’re so exhausted… even when nothing “looks wrong”What we talk aboutWhy the impact on partners and family members is often invisibleThe emotional weight of “looking
- StandardSummaries only82 - The Part No One Talks About Series: How it impacts your ability to parent
Published Apr 16, 2026
This is the part no one talks about.Not the addiction itself.Not your loved one.But you. The spouse, the one without the addiction.In this episode, we’re diving into the hidden impact addiction has on your parenting. The snapping, the numbness, the overwhelm… and the quiet guilt that follows.Because here’s the truth, It’s not that you’re an impatient parent.It’s that you’re running on empty and have no capacity.If you’ve ever:Snapped at your kids and thought “that wasn’t about them…”Felt physica
- StandardSummaries only81 - A Personal Update: Grief, Losing My Voice, and Why I’m Here
Published Apr 2, 2026
This episode is a little different.I wanted to sit down and share a personal update, what’s been happening behind the scenes for me, why I went quiet for a while, and what I’ve been navigating over the past few months.Just before Christmas, I received some devastating news. A dear friend of mine, Jack Nagel, passed away suddenly.This episode is me trying to put words to that experience.The grief, the shock, the strange loneliness of grief when you lose someone you didn’t share “people” with… and
- StandardSummaries only80 - The Part No One Talks About Series: This Isn’t Just Stress. It’s the Impact of Addiction.
Published Feb 20, 2026
You might be telling yourself you’re just stressed.It’s January.It's school holidays.It’s work.It’s parenting.It’s just a busy season.But if you love someone struggling with alcoholism or addiction in your family or relationship, what you’re feeling might not be “just stress.”It might be survival mode.In this episode of "The Part No One Talks About" mini-series, I talk about:• Why you’re constantly bracing• The scanning, anticipating and replaying• The emotional load you’re carrying• How we mini
- StandardSummaries only79 - "I Can’t Do Another Year Like This” When You’re Exhausted Living with Addiction
Published Feb 18, 2026
You’re tired. I know you are. Not just “busy” tired.Not just “it’s been a long week” tired.You are life + Addiction tired.You’re exhausted from holding everything together, for everyone, for years.If you’re living alongside addiction, whether your loved one is in active addiction, early sobriety, or years into recovery, and you feel like you’re walking on eggshells, holding your breath and constantly bracing… this episode is for you.In this conversation, we talk about:The hidden toll of hypervig
- StandardSummaries only78 - Acknowledging the Year You’ve Survived
Published Jan 14, 2026
If you’ve spent the past year holding everything together while your loved one's addiction has chipped away at your energy, your hope, and your sense of self, this episode is for you.In this raw, honest conversation, we look back at the year you’ve survived.Not minimising it.Not pretending it was “fine.”Not brushing it off because “it used to be worse.”This episode gently and truthfully names what you’ve been carrying:• The constant tension in the home• The emotional load of parenting alone• The
- StandardSummaries only77 - Holiday Series: Why Your Christmas Doesn’t Depend on Their Sobriety
Published Dec 11, 2025
Part 6 of the Holiday SeriesIf you’ve lived through more than one chaotic December, you’ve probably told yourself:“Christmas will only be okay if he’s sober.”“Maybe this year will be different… if he sticks to what he promised.”In this bonus episode of the Holiday Series, I am sharing the part nobody really tells spouses and families of someone struggling with addiction:Your experience of Christmas doesn’t actually depend on whether they drinks, use, shows up on time, or follow through on promis
- StandardSummaries only76 - Holiday Series: What I Wish Someone Told Me Before Every Christmas
Published Dec 9, 2025
Part 5 of the Holiday SeriesThis episode is the deep breath you didn’t know you needed.If you’re heading into December telling yourself, “I’ll be fine… I’ve done this before… I can handle it,” this one is for you.Because the truth is:✨ You have handled too much.✨ Your body is bracing, even if you’re pretending you’re okay.✨ And you absolutely do not have to repeat another year of emotional roulette.In this episode, Amanda gently walks you through:The real reason your chest tightens as the holida
- StandardSummaries only75 - Holiday Series: Three Things You Can Control This Season
Published Dec 8, 2025
Part 4 of the Holiday Mini-SeriesWhen your loved one's drinking, substance use, sobriety or recovery feels unpredictable, it can start to feel like everything is out of your hands, the mood, the energy in the house, whether plans go ahead or blow up, whether Christmas feels magical or like a minefield.This episode is for the lovely person who feels like they are bracing 24/7, waiting for the next wobble, the next mood shift, the next disappointment… and quietly wondering:“What’s even in my contr
- StandardSummaries only74 - Holiday Series: The Hidden Exhaustion of Loving Someone in Addiction
Published Dec 7, 2025
Part 3 of the Holiday Mini-SeriesThis episode dives into something most people will never understand unless they’ve lived it:You aren’t just planning Christmas.You’re planning Christmas around a loved ones addiction.While the rest of the world is thinking menus, Secret Santa, outfits and photos… you’re quietly assessing risk, predicting behaviour, managing expectations, rehearsing backup plans, and carrying the emotional safety of the entire household on your shoulders.This episode is for the sp
- StandardSummaries only73 - Holiday Series: The Dread of Dr. Jekyll or Mr. Hyde
Published Dec 6, 2025
A special Holiday Series Episode 2 of 5If you wake up already bracing yourself… wondering which “version” of your loved one you’ll get today, this episode will feel like someone finally naming the thing you’ve been silently living.This is the emotional whiplash of loving someone whose drinking, drug use or behaviour shifts without warning.And during the holidays?It hits even harder.In this episode, we unpack:✨ Why the unpredictability of his behaviour trains your nervous system into survival mod
- StandardSummaries only72 - Holiday Series: When Everyone Thinks You’re Fine - But You’re Not
Published Dec 5, 2025
Today’s episode kicks off a special 5-part holiday series created for spouses and families whose Christmas looks nothing like the picture-perfect scenes on social media or in the Hallmark Movies.If your loved one’s drinking or addiction makes the season feel unpredictable…If everyone assumes you’re fine…If you’re holding the entire holiday together while silently bracing for chaos…This episode is for you.I’m sharing the emotional load no one sees, the invisible planning you do, and the heartbrea
- StandardSummaries only71 - The Moment I Completely Lost It
Published Nov 20, 2025
There’s a moment in every addiction-impacted relationship where you realise… it’s not just their drinking/drug use/gambling etc that’s changing the family, it’s changing you too.You don’t plan for it.You don’t see it coming.And when it happens, the shame of it stays in your chest for years.Today I’m sharing a story I’ve never fully talked about publicly, the moment I completely lost it, the moment my kids were scared of me, not their dad, and the moment I realised that addiction had changed me i
- StandardSummaries only70 - When You Don't Like Who You've Become In Their Addiction
Published Nov 18, 2025
Have you ever looked at yourself and thought… “I don’t even recognise who I am anymore?”If so, this episode will feel like someone finally turned the lights on in a dark room you’ve been sitting in for years.When you love someone whose drinking or using creates chaos, unpredictability or emotional instability, it doesn’t just change them.It slowly, quietly, painfully changes you too.And one day you wake up snapping at your kids, checking his phone, scanning for signs of drinking, living in fear
- StandardSummaries only69 - If Nothing Changes, Nothing Changes: How to Start Turning Your Life Around Now
Published Nov 15, 2025
What if the change you’ve been waiting for has nothing to do with your loved one and everything to do with you?If your partner’s addiction has taken over your life, it’s easy to slip into survival mode: waiting for the next crisis, hoping this time things will magically improve, telling yourself you’ll feel better once they finally change.But here’s the truth: nothing changes if nothing changes. And in addiction-impacted relationships, things rarely stay the same. They usually get worse.In Part
- StandardSummaries only68 - Why Waiting for Rock Bottom Is Dangerous
Published Nov 11, 2025
You’ve probably heard it a thousand times, “they just need to hit rock bottom.” But what if that’s the very idea keeping you both stuck?When someone you love is struggling with addiction, it’s easy to believe that “rock bottom” is what will finally make them change. We’ve been told it by friends, family, even therapists, that things have to get bad enough before they get better.But here’s the truth: addiction is doing something despite the negative consequences, which means waiting for more pain
- StandardSummaries only67 - How to Rebuild Trust Without Turning Into a Detective
Published Nov 8, 2025
If your loved one says they’re sober but part of you still isn’t sure, this episode is for you.After living through lies, gaslighting, and constant second-guessing, rebuilding trust can feel impossible. You want to believe them. You want your relationship to work. But you’re also exhausted from checking, doubting, and playing detective.In this episode, Addiction Relationship Coach Amanda Lockyer explains what rebuilding trust really looks like after addiction, without losing yourself in the proc
- StandardSummaries only66 - They Say They’re Sober… But You’re Still Not Sure
Published Nov 7, 2025
When your loved one says they’re sober but you still smell alcohol, feel uneasy, or can’t shake that gut feeling, you’re not crazy.In this episode, I unpack what happens after the lies, after rehab, and after the chaos settles.I explain why it’s so hard to feel calm, how broken trust shows up in your body, and why believing yourself is the first step toward healing, not policing your partner.You’ll LearnWhy trust doesn’t return the moment sobriety startsThe trauma response behind hyper-vigilance
- StandardSummaries only65 - What No One Warns You About When They Go To Rehab
Published Oct 30, 2025
Everyone says, “They just need to go to rehab.”And maybe they do.But no one talks about what happens to the person left at home once they finally do.In this honest episode, Addiction Relationship Coach Amanda Lockyer shares what really happens on the other side of rehab. The emotional whiplash, the relief mixed with resentment, and why it’s completely normal to feel angry, confused, or even jealous while your loved one gets help.You’ll learn:• Why relief often turns into resentment (and what it’
- StandardSummaries only64 - When You’re Worn Out: Giving Yourself Permission to Stop
Published Oct 28, 2025
When you’re the one holding everything together, the house, the kids, the finances, the emotional whiplash and fallout, it’s no wonder you’re exhausted.Loving someone who struggles with alcohol or drugs can quickly take over your life. You keep going because stopping feels dangerous, like everything might collapse if you let go for a second.In this episode, Amanda shares what “the pause” really means when you’re run-down and stretched thin, and why it’s necessary for everyone’s wellbeing for you
- StandardSummaries only63 - How Perimenopause Makes Addiction-Impacted Relationships Even Harder
Published Oct 23, 2025
Navigating perimenopause while living with a spouse struggling with addiction can feel like too much. Because it is, in fact, too much. In this episode, Amanda shares why these two experiences collide, how it impacts your emotions and nervous system, and what real support looks like so you can start feeling calm and in control againIf you’re navigating perimenopause while also living with a partner who’s struggling with addiction, you are not imagining how hard this feels, it’s a lot.Your hormon
- StandardSummaries only62 - Rethinking Recovery and the Myths That Keep Us Stuck with Conrad Tracy
Published Oct 21, 2025
Conrad TracyWhat if the stories we’ve been told about addiction recovery, rock bottom, tough love, they have to want it themselves... are only half the truth?In this episode, Amanda sits down with Conrad Tracey, founder of Addiction Coaching Australia, to unpack the outdated myths that keep people stuck, and reveal what real, sustainable recovery actually looks like.Together they explore the messy middle of change, the space between crisis and consistency, and how both the person struggling and their loved
- StandardSummaries only61 - When You Don’t Know Whether to Stay or Leave
Published Oct 16, 2025
You love them and you’re exhausted.One day there’s hope, the next there’s heartbreak.And the question won’t stop circling your mind: Should I stay, or should I leave?In this episode, Amanda helps you step off the exhausting mental treadmill of “what ifs” and find solid ground again.You’ll learn:Why both staying and leaving are hardThe real question you need to ask insteadHow doing your own inner work is the key to clarityWhether your partner is in active addiction, early recovery, or somewhere i
- StandardSummaries only60 - Grieving Someone in Addiction Who is Still Alive
Published Oct 15, 2025
What if you’re grieving someone who’s still alive?In this episode, Amanda explains living grief, the hidden heartbreak of loving someone in addiction. Learn why it feels confusing, how grief shows up in your body, and gentle ways to begin healing without losing yourself.It’s the tension between hope and heartbreak.Between who they were and who they are now.You can love them and still grieve them.You can hold hope and still hold boundaries.Listen next:Ep 47 - 11 Subtle Signs Your Partner’s Addict
- StandardSummaries only59 - The Crazy Things I Did In My Husband's Addiction
Published Oct 9, 2025
You’ve sniffed laundry, counted bottles, checked phones, screenshotted bank statements.Me too.You’re not crazy, you’re trying your best to cope the only way you know how.In this episode, I unveil my long list of whack and unhinged behaviour and unpack why the “detective mode” makes sense and why it’s quietly breaking you, and how to step out of it with compassion.You’ll learn:The gaslighting → doubt → evidence-hunt loop (and why it’s addictive)Why hyper-vigilance feels like control but creates b
- StandardSummaries only58 - The High-Functioning Addiction Myth: When ‘Fine’ Isn’t Actually Fine
Published Oct 7, 2025
They’ve got a good job.They pay the bills.They make people laugh.So how could this be addiction, right?That’s what we tell ourselves. Until being high-functioning for them starts feeling like being high-alert for you.In this raw and honest episode, Amanda pulls back the curtain on one of the most misleading labels in addiction: “high-functioning.”You’ll learn:Why “holding it all together” can actually be a form of denialThe hidden emotional cost for partners and familiesHow this label gaslights